So HONEY breaks up with BEE and hooks up with another guy within a few days, bringing him back to the house where BEE lives.
BEE was living in a room with HONEY so now he moves into a communal room and sleeps on a sofa.
I have been in the house day after day, watching him suffer, like his heart is bleeding and just opening up the wound by itself, minute by minute, as HONEY goes off to see a new guy and don't come home.
It all happened in past couple of weeks. I have a body which gets depression like it's a infection. I was doing everything to make sure neither of us gets dragged down by his depression.
I even started attacking my crush by saying
"ALL men sucks and ALL women fake."
He didn't speak to me for a while after that.
Last night HONEY brings the guy home and he spends a night with her in her room, WITH his sister, for some weird reason. BEE was totally low, while everyone else was talking to the newbies, like they have been best of friends for years. I stayed around till I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer, so BEE wouldn't feel suicidal by being on his own.
Today I go around there, HONEY's new guy and his sister are still there. The sister was lying on BEE's spare sofa like a humpback whale, baring the supersized stomach and uncontrollably spreading equally supersized thighs below cropped superwide pants. She was so charming in person and SO charming in her manner, I was terrified to watch her for more than 5 sec.
HONEY's new guy is actually super good looking, but he couldn't even speak straight as he was completely stoned as far as I have seen him.
I didn't know why they were still there since HONEY was long gone. Even more confusingly, BEE was in high spirit and talking in the friendliest manner to the newbies.
Probably to lift everyone's spirit to even higher level, they were all passing skinned up big ones, a few at a time between 5 people, and this is supposed to be a night before their big exam (starting 9am.)
I don't touch dope, and I am extremely uncomfy around heavily stoned people. So was naturally quieted down as they started giggling more frequently than ever.
Then more joints were passed around, and HONEY, who was at work, comes home. BEE is fine, everyone is acting normal, I am all confused.
Now everyone is smoking, and my crush is writing down half a page of revision memo a 2 hrs. He has the exam in 10 hrs and he only has 2 pages of materials to read and revise.
They then put a Futurama on, which is all very well, except they had to put on the ones I was forced to watch (by democracy) so many time, of which last round took place only 2 days ago.
My mind began looking for an excuse to leave.
Then D opens his mouth to the newbie,
"Do you eat mushroom?"
Newbie says that he can't swallow them due to its texture. My crush started, big time, on good recipes...
I stood up and grabbed my jacket with a big tired smile and said,
"I'm outy! Byeeee!!"
Can't deal with this fucked up commune things, and adolescent lurrrve shit that gets recycled and starts all over within a couple days. I bleed and I get depressed for mates, and I hate sluts. I don't do dope and I think shrooms are sorta A class. I am pleasant and am good at faking.... OH, I am so gonna get dumped. Am tired and can't sleep. Forget it.
