I like keeping my txt messages, especially from someone whom I am crazy for. I keep all the txts I have ever received from Mr. EggBe, and the same goes for my crush.
Used to the same for the guy who has gotten rid of me 12 months ago, and I still have them somewhere in my hard drive. But even back when I was madly "in" with that guy I knew very much that there will be a day when I find the files and thing,
"Why on earth did I ever obsess over stupid messages like them?"
Today the software started acting up and I have lost all my old texts received since this March. I am guessing that's about 1500 txt messages from my crush. They just went and nowhere to be found. I have no idea what they said, I never had chance to read them back as there were so many, and I naturally panicked. Oh dear, what am I to do now, my record of correspondence with someone who mean so much to me...
But then again, do I feel this way for how long? I mean he could be gone tomorrow, and I can immediately start hating him from tonight if anything happens. Why am I clinging onto memory that's 3 months old to a day old. Age of memory makes no difference, the only common thing is that,
it has happened, and it is in the past,
move on, forget storing them somewhere,
just keep going.
Mr. EggBe once told me, once someone stop contacting you then make sure to erase that person's number. The person has chosen exist from your life and there's no use waiting for it to return. There's no sin in forgetting someone who left you.
I am a storere, my house is full of junk,
but some day, I will just get rid of them all. And who knows, he may be waiting for you 2 days from today, 2 years from today, 20 years from today.
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