Even Dirker Tuesday

"I hate my job."

I kept saying that at least 10 times a day for god knows how long.
It was mainly because of Dirk bullying me to death, AND the fact the owner had some woman's jealousy towards me and being an utter bitch.

NOW, Dirk got me fired.

Hurrah!!

This is the first time I ever got fired. It's a shit job and I felt such a losery.

Then a mate told me that since I had no contract, I didn't technically get fired.

Hummm...

Dodgy Nighty

I just saw a pair of tits on eBay, as I was SIMPLY looking for 40s style summer dress.
Oh, gimme a break, give us a warning first, will ya??
BIG juicy soggin' breasts to sell nighties??

As I was looking for a new job, (that's right, not only I was let go, I was told not to come back from today.) I took my natural course and detoured to eBay.

eBay is the most wonderful thing ever happen to my life... more or less.

Just, have to watch not to bid on anything as my income has ceased as of today. Damn.

OK, maybe just one Nina Simone CD. It's summer, I need it.

Dirk Sunday

Sunday at work is full of impossible orders and a bossy co-worker who critisize everything I do.

I hate my job in such days and I hate the fact Sundays lately have been so bloody sunny and nice.

But today I kept smiling, as I kept spilling everything.

Madly IN.

Every Morning

Every morning, there's a heart shells hanging from the corner of my bed. Hating to wake up, hating to go to work, and all of sudden I am half an hour late already.

Blame it all on the traffic, although am very much aware of my boss's suspicious looks, and I put on a lab coat and get to work.

Every evening I clunk the card and go through the roughest path to gradually speed up to 80 mph, not even hearing my crappy CD player at its max volume, spitting out the lyrics about some girl and a boy.

I watch all the flashy cars to go by me and look up the sky and see the tint of blue and am all ecstatic.

I recount the numbers of beer from last night, I try to calculate the mileage / gallon, I think about grocery shopping, I think about coffee, I think about how cute our driver is ... that is my every day on motorways.

Today I kept shivering, I looked up to the grey sky and felt so cold because am so numb. Made stupid mistakes all day along and was shitting myself not to do that on the motorway...

Sky was grey and the road was half wet, I was just in total shock and shaking in denial

I think I did it again, FINALLY. I am so IN.

I want to be a...

Oh, look at me making statement on pond making, how boring when I am excited like that.

Ever since I saw barrels I was in a state of day dreaming, dreaming and dozed up in fever. It is just that ponds are the completion of my dream life.

I want to hear water trickle onto the surface as it rains, as it always does in here;I want to hear a whim of silence when I realize the fish twitch the flakes and make this noise, "Muuwa!!" ;
I want to be a gnome by the barrel ponds and just hide away;
I want to hush cats away from the ponds at the middle of the night and feel courageous and protective, and I want my bitches to join me and yap;
I want to find strange creatures floating dead in my ponds;
I want to fish out mosquito larvae from my ponds...

I like a simple life, with ponds.

Ponds for Frogs, that's what I want, baby

I am building ponds. AT LAST!!!

I need a serene scene in my garden. I can't possibly like driving behind a METRO without a single light working and hard breaks on mortorways. I can't like being hooted by a huge white lorry who decided to change lanes at a roundabout. I absolutely hate NTL broadband which keeps cutting off every 30min. Hate being told off at work for putting boxes not straight.

I want to come home to garden with ponds.

This, I tried and I do actually have a bath tub in my garden, which I planned to fill up with water so I can release fish in. But I am using it as a well, and I need it to stay that way.

Then the other day, I went to a garden centre where they sell barrels!! cheap!!!

My brain is feilled up with the ideas once again. I am checking all the aquatic supply shops around.

I am going to build ponds.

4 beers and 7 fags later

That wasn't the reason I called someone slut, besides I don't even know if there was a sagittarius girl.

But if there was, and if it was you, Hannah, I called myself a bitch so it wasn't personal at all and I think you are hot.

Why men ask me what the star sign people are like, always quoting his girl friends' signs.

I mean, I bet you know hers way better than I ever do, since I never met them and you are sleeping with them for a long time??

Just because leo women have tendency to use people, scorpios to self pity and aquarius women to drive men crazy with their mistique, that doesn't mean your leo girls are using you, or you should dump your scorpio girls because that is what happen to them all the time, nor you should stay away from aquarius.

Tendency is not the abs. truth either, and I am not totally following the signs, either.

Today

is someone's birthday, everyday is, of course, and tomorrow is someone special's birthday, it always will be.

I hate it that the day was so sunny and nice and hot like summer, and I hate it that I had a lousy day a year ago today and remembering it so I just hate the nice weather, and I hate it that my tears feel so uncomfortable because they are warm and the air was tricking on my face even hotter.
I will be happy tomorrow and will insist on celebration although I never met Bobbie, and I will drink to his sobriety.


Orgasm guy has borrowed my spade, and brought it back, thanks.
I am sick of my friend trying to trick me into having cyber with him... get laid already, there are plenty of Asian whores in your neighbourhood, and I most certainly am not one to provide any service to you.


I am thankful to my workmates for dismissing my bitching about today, and I am thankful to the weather and cherry blossoms regardless of their generosity to give the beau to everyone, I mean, EVERYONE.

400 HITS!!!!

Yeah!

I would say thank you to whoever hit it, but I have a strong suspicion that it WAS me.

Anyway, thanks to all who visit me xx

RDJ

Happy Birthday to you, Bobbie,
I love thee so much,
you make me smile and want to be
whatever you want me to be ♥ ♥

Didn't know that one! ((RENT the MOVIE))

Great news that RENT is currently being filmed, I was waiting for it to happen for a LONG time.

I don't know if the film will be OK in the end. I mean, there are so many of us just expecting THE perfection, and that is not easy thing to happen.

Casts seem perfect enough to me, I am so glad that they brought Taye Diggs back in, and Adam Pascal, too.

And I think Wilson Jermaine Heredia is fab as Angel. Can't wait to see her in silver screen, really.

And De Niro is producing the film???? I didn't know that one!!!!